I feel so lonely today,sometimes whom you consider closest to you become indifferent towards your pain, your sufferings just for sake of their own interest.I feel ashamed of myself when I turn back and realize that I have always been wrong in judging people.How can I even expect someone to stay on my back and support me if that person can't even keep self interest aside for the time bieng.Yes am stupid, stupid enough to hope against hopes, stupid because I saw a dream and want to fulfill it,stupid because I get upset for people who dont even realize it.I am an emotional fool who would do anything for love and keeps loved ones my priority over anything, yes that is my fault, I should be materialistic and emotionless to live further otherwise I would soon loose the zeal to live and enjoy but would just live as I have to and waste this 'life'- a wonderful gift by god.